Anytime I would seek a need, I was every word under sun: spoiled, greedy, needy, ungrateful etc. Trying to fulfill need isn't the same as being needy.
The next part I need in helping my confidence is interacting with others. I've been challenging myself to talk to five strangers daily, and it's been working. Now, I need something a bit bigger.
To you the reader (if you've never met me), may find that a bit contradicting. I know a lot of other people who know me and would think the same.
The first time was quite problematic. I knew less about my dissociative tendencies, so allowing that pain in caused my brain to check me out (and full blown panic attacks to occur).
There's a stigma out there that because I don't feel very well, I don't have the capacity for empathy, that I must be cold, lack all creativity, and that I'm prone to dangerous personality disorders. Who truly is the heartless one?
Here's some basic advice I have for anyone who may be starting their own mental health journey.
Yet I sit here - now for a few months - deciding what words should be my first words. I wonder why it's so difficult. I think I now understand: we weight first impressions to heavily, I've been overthinking the 'what ifs', and of course the big one: vulnerability.