Continue to live life. I'm going through the paces right now, and I hope I find where I fit. There was guilt during all of this.
Any mental illness who's condition comes with a sack load of depression will tell you all the reasons why you shouldn't be on this earth. This voice is particularly the loudest on your birthday. If then the sense of the day is impersonal, echoes of worthlessness and burden follow through.
Once I realized what was happening, I self-sabotaged myself with humour: calling myself a doormat or someone who stood pretty strait for someone with no backbone.
CRASH--SPLASH--TING! You have GOT to be kidding me.
As a part of your individual therapy, it's usually encouraged (both by paid and public) to attend groups as a part of your treatment plan. Here's some of the basics to get you started.
Here's some basic advice I have for anyone who may be starting their own mental health journey.