Then, the moment I get out of bed with this I can do anything attitude, it quickly drops. Some days, I'm lucky if I complete my AM breakfast regime. I then have to make choices for that day, pushing those goals I had for myself further and further away.
It's becoming more and more difficult to get out of bed. My passive suicidality has really made itself known, and my brain and body feel rather empty.
Floors washed, toilets scrubbed, counters dusted, furniture moved to get to the dust... Not only to vacuum, but to shammy off any spots or that weird layer of dust that lingers. We're talking a job that starts shortly after 8am and doesn't end until the whole place smells of chemical disinfectant.