Continue to live life. I'm going through the paces right now, and I hope I find where I fit. There was guilt during all of this.
Then, the moment I get out of bed with this I can do anything attitude, it quickly drops. Some days, I'm lucky if I complete my AM breakfast regime. I then have to make choices for that day, pushing those goals I had for myself further and further away.
If anything happens, I need to hold. I have to shut my ego up and not be so hard on myself that I’m not beating odds. They’re clearly stacked against me in a way I can’t get around.
In my case, I'm unsure what to do. It's a hard one to get people you know to stop asking you, let alone complete strangers. I welcome suggestions.
I learned a crucial lesson about myself while this is going on: don't over book yourself, and stick to a simple routine. Only add a challenging aspect when you know in your gut you can deal with whatever outcome, and expect outcomes to have ripple effects a few days later.
It's becoming more and more difficult to get out of bed. My passive suicidality has really made itself known, and my brain and body feel rather empty.
A scented candle isn't going to make my craving for escapism go away. In fact, it may dangerously replace an old addiction from a new one.