I really don't want to hold, I want to push through and get this slow process over. Holding seems counter-productive.
It's becoming more and more difficult to get out of bed. My passive suicidality has really made itself known, and my brain and body feel rather empty.
After years of being at the mercy of this drug, and going through an accidental, life-threatening cold turkey detox, I'm done. My story will soon come, but for now, I wish to share with you what my new routine to get back my life looks like.