Anytime I would seek a need, I was every word under sun: spoiled, greedy, needy, ungrateful etc. Trying to fulfill need isn't the same as being needy.
The next part I need in helping my confidence is interacting with others. I've been challenging myself to talk to five strangers daily, and it's been working. Now, I need something a bit bigger.
It's easier to get through life with many thinking I'm an asshole/space case than saying a word barely anyone understands, then try to explain myself. Repeatedly.