Continue to live life. I'm going through the paces right now, and I hope I find where I fit. There was guilt during all of this.
I thought it responsible of me to mention that images and discussion of these pointy objects will be used repeatedly in this post. I personally know people with high level phobia of the buggers, if you're the same, you may want to skip today's entry.
It's what's called chronic pain, and chronic illness. What's gets you these labels? Length of time: dealing with the issue for over six months, and no signs of a full recovery. Whatever the issue may be, it extends beyond the expected period of healing.
The pain of a full obstruction can be worse than child birth: this was said to me by a woman who had both happen a few days a part.