The next part I need in helping my confidence is interacting with others. I've been challenging myself to talk to five strangers daily, and it's been working. Now, I need something a bit bigger.
It derives from Christian superstition: thirteen people were present the night before Jesus' death on Good Friday.
The first time was quite problematic. I knew less about my dissociative tendencies, so allowing that pain in caused my brain to check me out (and full blown panic attacks to occur).
One day, I hit the wall. The whole day is spent in bed, I possibly flare-up something, and it takes more time to recover than the last. Mentally, I'm demoralize and feel loss of hope. Pacing prevents this.
The difference between PTSD and cPTSD is multiple trauma. Usually, it happened (or is happening) for a long period of time, and in some cases in multiple areas of a person's life. Due to these factors, there's a change in the creation of self-concept and much more adaptation to typical and stressful life events.