IF YOU ARE IN DANGER, CALL 911. Passive suicidal ideation is the constant thought of ending my life. It's always been there controlled by a volume dial I can't access.
Sleep is one of the basic needs in which regulates so much in our beaten down brains and bodies. What have I been doing to find a balance?
I learned a crucial lesson about myself while this is going on: don't over book yourself, and stick to a simple routine. Only add a challenging aspect when you know in your gut you can deal with whatever outcome, and expect outcomes to have ripple effects a few days later.
This is an example of cognitive freeze response that isn't your classic social anxiety freeze. The fun part about doing a titration is you never know if it's your wean or your disorder causing the problem.
It's easier to get through life with many thinking I'm an asshole/space case than saying a word barely anyone understands, then try to explain myself. Repeatedly.
The first time was quite problematic. I knew less about my dissociative tendencies, so allowing that pain in caused my brain to check me out (and full blown panic attacks to occur).
The difference between PTSD and cPTSD is multiple trauma. Usually, it happened (or is happening) for a long period of time, and in some cases in multiple areas of a person's life. Due to these factors, there's a change in the creation of self-concept and much more adaptation to typical and stressful life events.