The next part I need in helping my confidence is interacting with others. I've been challenging myself to talk to five strangers daily, and it's been working. Now, I need something a bit bigger.
I know I have made some dumb comments, and I appreciate when people bring it to my attention. I can't change unless I'm told.
If anything happens, I need to hold. I have to shut my ego up and not be so hard on myself that I’m not beating odds. They’re clearly stacked against me in a way I can’t get around.
I can't say what exactly was the trigger. What I do know is I tend to shove everything into a bottle that's constantly being shaken.
CRASH--SPLASH--TING! You have GOT to be kidding me.
I'm starting to notice a pattern where I dip badly into cannot cope mode, hopefully I can figure out how to better plan and stay ahead on my writing. Personal accountability is what's beating me up.
Something will always go wrong. Particularly since this titration off the bezos takes such a long time, I'm expecting more than one screw up to happen.