Any mental illness who's condition comes with a sack load of depression will tell you all the reasons why you shouldn't be on this earth. This voice is particularly the loudest on your birthday. If then the sense of the day is impersonal, echoes of worthlessness and burden follow through.
I know I have made some dumb comments, and I appreciate when people bring it to my attention. I can't change unless I'm told.
If anything happens, I need to hold. I have to shut my ego up and not be so hard on myself that I’m not beating odds. They’re clearly stacked against me in a way I can’t get around.
I can't say what exactly was the trigger. What I do know is I tend to shove everything into a bottle that's constantly being shaken.
CRASH--SPLASH--TING! You have GOT to be kidding me.
I'm starting to notice a pattern where I dip badly into cannot cope mode, hopefully I can figure out how to better plan and stay ahead on my writing. Personal accountability is what's beating me up.
There's a key set of symptoms that I always have, and although they can make life challenging, I find them interesting. Yes, I said interesting.