Then, the moment I get out of bed with this I can do anything attitude, it quickly drops. Some days, I'm lucky if I complete my AM breakfast regime. I then have to make choices for that day, pushing those goals I had for myself further and further away.
If anything happens, I need to hold. I have to shut my ego up and not be so hard on myself that I’m not beating odds. They’re clearly stacked against me in a way I can’t get around.
I can't say what exactly was the trigger. What I do know is I tend to shove everything into a bottle that's constantly being shaken.
There's a key set of symptoms that I always have, and although they can make life challenging, I find them interesting. Yes, I said interesting.
As previously mentioned, participants of this group aren't hiding under the sheets as I was doing. For the most part, if I was in a dangerous situation, they would be the best bodyguards on the planet. No bending of these spines, I wish I had a bit of their gumption. Therefore I completely understood why no mingling outside group was strongly enforced.